Memory Loss

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Can you imagine waking up one morning and having lost your memory? It freaks me out. I hurt so much for Ryan - he doesn't remember his life - I mean his life now. And he has a good life, too! How did this happen? He was fine last time I saw him - and then... poof - it's 2004? And he's back in love with me?? I mean there are worse states of mind to be in - but we've all come so far since then. Now that I think about it - maybe some memory loss ain't such a bad thing. There are a few choice moments I'd like to forget, some close calls I wish I couldn't remember - but all of the good stuff... Spike, Emma, Annie - how do you lose your family without them ever leaving you?

Comments

[Tigereye]

Kendall,

It's just like you to feel so much compassion for someone who has treated you so horribly in the past, especially during the time he now thinks he's in. But YOU have come far. You're in love with a wonderful man, and he's in love with you. You have two beautiful children. Help Annie, but it's really Annie who needs to work this out with Ryan. Let them get the best medical help possible, but keep your distance from him.

[Thu]

Kendall,
I'm not underestimating you or anything, but I'm starting to get worried. Please don't let what's happening to Ryan affect you're connection with Zach. You must know how much he loves you! That man would die for you. I know you and Ryan have a past together and a son, but please remember, whatever you and Ryan had is in the PAST! Ryan may be living in the PAST right now, but you're still living in the PRESENT, and your present is one with a promising FUTURE.... That is if nothing happens between you and Ryan. Please, please don't let anything happen. I don't want to see what you and Zach have go down the drain! I love the two of you together. It gives the rest of us couples out there hope. If you and Zach can't make it, what happens to the rest of us! Please think of ZACH!

[Nicole stampfli]

How do you feel by the fact that Ryan is in Love with you.
Kendall you have always wanted to be with Ryan.
Ryan is a hadsome guy.
kendall I know you still Love him.

[Barb NY]

Kendall..You had best distance yourself from Ryan. He was in a bad place four years ago and treated you terribly at that time. He needs therapy to help him and not from you. You have come very far in the past four years. Don't go back to the time that Ryan treated you like a doormat. You have a wonderful husband that loves you and two great sons. You've gone through a lot to get where you are. Don't sacrifice your happiness. Let Ryan's wife and brother help him work through this.

[Jules]

No, I can't imagine what it's like to lose 4 years of your life, like Ryan has, and suddenly not remember your family or your life during that time. It's inconceivable to me that this is what you and Zach are now dealing with, in addition to all your other problems. I have to tell you, Kendall, that there are some very ugly things that Ryan did to you in those 4 years that I wish I didn't remember, let alone Ryan! He humiliated you, broke your heart, insulted you so often, and made you feel unworthy of love. Thankfully you have Zach, Spike and Ian in your life, and you now know the meaning of unconditional love. Ryan never understood that, and now that we're all reduced to living in 2004 again, I'm sure he won't know the meaning of it now.

[CindyK]

Kendall,

Poor Annie and Emma. It's difficult enough for the adults to take it all in...but Emma is just a little girl. How do you explain that daddy doesn't remember you? Ryan may not of intentionally set out to hurt Annie but the pain on her face was clearly visible when he said when he looks at you, all he can see is the woman he loves.

So glad you not only told Ryan but showed him just how happy you are with Zach.

[MrsK]

Kendall,

I'm not sure why your past with Ryan is even an issue. HE may be stuck in 2004 but YOU clearly are not, and as you told Ryan, you are very happy with Zach. Of course I do hope Ryan regains his memory and regains that happiness with Annie...Emma deserves at least that much.

[HalfPint]

Kendall,

Ryan being stuck in 2004 and declaring his love for you doesn't bother me. It won't be long before he will be declaring Greenlee "the love of his life" and you just a "detour".

Greenlee may be correct in about that history running deep, but she is no objective observer. Zach needs to keep that in mind with whatever info Greenlee gives him...because Ryan wasn't the only person responsible for one of the painful periods of your life...Greenlee did her fair share as well.

[Aurora]

Kendall,

As the "other woman" in your relationship with Ryan, Greenlee has no right to talk to Zach about that history. The only person that should be filling Zach in, is you, and the only one who will give it to him straight. Greenlee only has HER version of what went down.

I'm glad that you want to help Ryan, but I really don't want to relive it because it was so hard to see you in so much pain. Thankfully, as you pointed out today, you are no longer that person and now are extremely happy with Zach.

[MeMe]

Kendall,

I know that whether or not Ryan regains his memory of Spike, Spike will be in good hands because he'll always have Daddy Zach.

BTW is someone going to tell Jonathan that Ryan was, recovered, and now has no recollection of the last four years?

[JJ]

Kendall,

I definitely don't think Zach has anything to worry about...unless Ryan turns violent again...which is possible. If history repeats itself, it won't be long before Ryan turns on you, deeming you unworthy of his love and moves on to his next "detour"....which is why I don't want a repeat of any of it.

[Kelly]

Kendall, Girl have You got a very big problem! I can not imagine myself in Ryan's shoes. RYAN WANTS YOU BACK BIG TIME!! He is not going to stop until he gets you. I do not think that you should be alone with him. It is a good thing that Spike is to young to understand what is happening to his dad. I feel so bad for Emma because she is going to be very confused for a long time. You need to tell Zach that you are in love with him because he is not going to be very understanding when Ryan tries to put the moves on You!!!!

[Anne]

Kendall, It's sad for Ryan but he will get his memory back.

You just have to focus on your family, Zach, Ian, Spike and yourself. You've been thru hell. You need time for yourselves. You need to unwind. Take your family with you on your book tour. Take Rachel so you and Zach can have some much needed alone time.

Ryan will remember Annie and Emma again with the help of a goog shrink.

You have Zach, the love of your life, your soulmate, and that is all that matters.

Remember "Always only you!"

[Zanna]

Kendall
I feel sad for Annie and Emma because they are the one that Ryan will hurt. I just feel a little weird the way Ryan is looking at you it kind of scare me for you that he will try to do something to her you.

[Kristen]

Kendall...

I'm worried about you and the toll all of this has taken.

I know you view Ryan as a friend, but Kendall, be careful. Ryan has hurt you many, many, many times. He has never respected you or your feelings and I don't think now is any different. I do not want to see you get sucked back into his madness.

For Ryan it may be 2004, but for you and everyone else it is 2008. You are happily married with children - do not allow Ryan to interfere with that.

I believe you need to keep your distance from him, help Annie and Emma, because they are the one who have lost their family.

Kristen

[Becky, Brandon,MS]

Yeah...this is a tough one.
I think you and Zach will do okay. I'm worried about when him remembering he was married to Greens. That could mean curtains for Aidan....Annie! Get your gun!

[Ann]

I hope you get to spend more time with Zach and to reassure him you love him. I know there are things you'd like to forget but I'd rather you deal with them wtih Zach.

[Sandy]

It's tough what happened to Ryan. I'd explain your current situation with Zach and the boys and then step back and see what happens.

Ryan needs medical help and you can't offer that. I'd be supportive but focus on Zach, Ian and Spike.

[April]

Kendall
no I can't think how it would be to wake up and not know who you are but I also think that the way Ryan is acting is kind of creepy. even after you told him you are very happy.