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Monday, January 21, 2008
Where the hell could Zach have gone? He ran out of the Valley Inn like a bat out of hell - I don't even think he heard me calling his name. When he gets that angry... it takes a lot to snap him out of it. I've tried everyone - no one's seen him. Damn it! I knew he was still on the edge because of Hannah - but Adam had to go and push him straight over. If I wasn't so scared of how far Zach would've taken his anger - I would have cheered him on for throttling Adam. He deserved some of it. But... Zach is wound so tight right now - and that scares me more than anything...
Where have you looked? Did you check the boat house ? Try it? BUT Kendall don't trust Greenlee - she hasn't changed - she wants your man - I know they have a special bond now but I don't trust her. Watch your back thats all I can say.
Posted by: Bonnie | January 21, 2008 at 06:47 PM
Kendall
I know it is hard right now but Zach is having a hard time with everything since getting out of the hole and Adam push the wrong button. Zach afraid of showing you his dark side and not being able to control the dark side that you might get hurt
Posted by: April | January 21, 2008 at 06:58 PM
Kendall,
You and the boys are the only ones that can help Zach now, as always! You know your husband better than anyone and that will never change! You helped Zach through one of the most difficult times in his life with his father and you, and you alone, will have to continue your steadfast support and love for him. With you by his side, he will be better and stronger for it! He will do that for you, as well. The two of you together can and will get through anything! "Always Only Us!"
Posted by: Jen | January 21, 2008 at 07:05 PM
Kendall..Zach is definitely not acting like himself. All of the strain he's been under the past few months seems to be catching up with him. It's just not like him to go off like that without regard for you. He's almost like a different person. You are really going to have to be there for him. He's going to need you to help him get through this. You and Zach could really use some vacation time. Getting away and relaxing for a few days would be good for both of you.
Posted by: Barb NY | January 21, 2008 at 07:06 PM
Kendall,
Zach just needed a place to cool down. His anger was more at himself than any one because he let Adam get to him. Zach is right...he is better than that. You and Zach are overdue for a very long talk...Zach is putting up walls again because of his fear of losing you. Zach knows that you love him completely...the good, the bad, and the ugly. He just needs a reminder and you are just the person to do it.
Posted by: CindyK | January 21, 2008 at 07:27 PM
I know you're worried, but Zach is going to be okay. You need to calm down before you spill your guts and screw everything up.
Posted by: Becky,Brandon,MS | January 21, 2008 at 07:45 PM
I agree with you! It was scary to see Zach react that way, but Adam did push his buttons, and he deserved what he got. I dearly wish he had told you where he was going so you wouldn't worry. Since the bomb shelter mess, you vowed not to let him out of your sight, and what has he done? He's left you to confront Hannah (for which he apologized) and now he's left you again. I don't like this. Zach is much better than that.
I remember last year at this time, only you could get through to him. A serial killer was out there, and you two worked as a team. Now he shuts you out of his thoughts and leaves you on your own, while you deal with guilt over Aidan. I miss when you two were on the same page, talking and sharing and laughing together. I also refuse to believe that suddenly you aren't someone whom Zach can talk to and rely on. That just doesn't make any sense to me, and I hope it changes soon.
Posted by: Jules | January 21, 2008 at 07:48 PM
Kendall,
As I suspected Zach is disappointed and angry with himself that he took Adam's bait. It appears that Zach has lost some of his self confidence and who can blame him after spending weeks in a bomb shelter believing the end was near only to survive and then see the attempt on your life. Zach's greatest fear is losing you and feeling he can't protect you or your family. Now would be a good time to remind him that you love him completely and that you don't expect him to be anybody but who he is...even the scary and lethal Zach. After surviving everything else Pine Valley has thrown at the two of you...you'll get through this too.
Posted by: HalfPint | January 21, 2008 at 07:52 PM
Kendall,
You don't need to be afraid for or of Zach. As long has he had you by his side you'll both be fine. Don't ever doubt his love or his fidelity for you because that will never change. I'm sure that Zach knows just how much you love him...all of him...but even men need to be reminded from time to time.
Posted by: Brainerd | January 21, 2008 at 07:56 PM
Your man is scared girl...he is scared he can't protect you and those babies and he really can't be blamed for that with everything that has happened. He needs you to hold him and remind him of the man he is he is brave and strong and loving and loyal and he deserves love and happiness. You will have to work to get him to talk to you but you know he is worth it! Don't pay any attention to anyone else they are not part of the relationship you and Zach share and don't know what you mean to each other no matter what it takes keep him close and be there for him. LOVE ZENDALL Simply the Best!!
Posted by: LUVZEN in MO | January 21, 2008 at 08:09 PM
Kendall,
Zach will come around. He's pissed at himself for letting Adam get to him. Just know that Zach loves you more than life...and there is no other woman on this planet that loves him like you. Zendall forever.
Posted by: Onamia | January 21, 2008 at 08:13 PM
Kendall, Zach needs help for the way he is feeling. Maybe you should tell him that he had you scared about what he was doing and tell him that you need him to start to talk to a professional. Zach needs to get over his guilt and that will take time.
Posted by: Kelly | January 21, 2008 at 09:20 PM
Kendall,
Zach needed a quiet respite...which should of been in your arms where he belongs. There is no way he would or could look at another woman because for Zach he only has love for "the woman with diamonds in her eyes" and no one else will do.
I also have to disagree with Greenlee as she talked with Zach and told him that his losing his cool with Adam was very similar to when he lost the pictures of you and the kids on his cell phone while they were in the bomb shelter. The difference IMO is that Zach had absolutely no control over the loss of those pictures. However, he did and does have control over his actions when it comes to his temper and and how he chooses to react to Adam. Zach is so right...he is better than that and that is why he is so upset with himself.
Posted by: MeMe | January 21, 2008 at 09:22 PM
Kendall, this is not like Zach at all (and for him to leave you without telling you so you would not be worried)! You two share a great love and bond that is truly unbreakable. I believe it is only you that can get through to Zach and you need to keep fighting to make sure you do. It was you that helped him with ACS and made him see what a loving, great and wonderful man that he (Zach) is. If it weren't for you during that time, Zach may have slipped over to the dark brooding side. You, Spike and Ian are his love and hope!!!!
You and Zach do not need any outside interference to work through this! You and Zach have overcome many obstacles in the last few years by working together as a team (and talking it out). Your great love story is what has made you the #1 super couple and why so many fans adore you (and fight for you).
Always Only Zendal!!!!!!!
Posted by: LynnH | January 22, 2008 at 05:43 AM
Dear Kendall: I truly believe that the only one that can help Zach is YOU! Zendall together can solve their problems. During the ACS reign of terror it was you (and only you) that was able to help Zach overcome his doubts and fears and you helped him to become a better man and father -- just like he helped you become the better woman and mother!
The both of you have to sit down and be HONEST with each other (and yes you may have to tell him about that unfortunate incident). I think you should whisk Zach away on the At Last and set sail (hide the keys) -- then talk about your issues without fear of outside interference and no way of escape from each other in the middle of the ocean (lake?). You don't come back to land until everything is out in the open and discussed. Of course once you get it all resolved, don't forget to have a few days of the long awaited honeymoon before coming back to land!
It is time for Zendall to get back on track so they can face their next foe together.
Always only Zendall!
Posted by: lovemylhasa | January 22, 2008 at 03:07 PM
Kendall,
Zach needs you now maybe more than he ever has before. Adam did provoke him and Zach snapped, which almost never happens. He doesn't lose control. You need to find him and get him to open up to you. I'm worried about him, for all he has been through and the fact that he won't talk to you. You can handle the truth even if it is ugly. What you shouldn't have to handle is your husband emotionally shutting you out and letting another person in...especially a person who shouldn't be anywhere near him, or you, or your sons.
Posted by: Sarah | January 22, 2008 at 07:45 PM