Deathgrip

Monday, January 14, 2008

She just let go. Hannah didn't even try to hold on for very long - and with one little gesture she's going to haunt Zach for the rest of his life. God, I hate that woman. Now Zach actually blames himself for her death. She lured him here, she let go - she's the crazy obsessed woman that tried to kill me! But... she was the mother of Zach's first son - and I know Zach will always feel guilty that he couldn't save her. It's almost like she knew that by letting go of his hand, she'd actually have a stronger grip on him in the end. She's so twisted. But I have to convince Zach... I have to make him see that Hannah wanted to end her life... that she wanted it to be over. Maybe if he understands that in his heart he'll be able to let it be over too.

Comments

[Jules]

Back when the Satin Slayer was haunting you and Zach, you were the only person who could get through to Zach. You realized then why Zach feels he has to save these women, and I had thought and hoped that you'd helped him put an end to his guilt and his sadness. Unfortunately, we're back to square one again, thanks to Hannah.

I still believe that only you can get through to him. Zach once said that he's got demons, but he's not alone because he's got you and the boys. You need to know that. You are his salvation. He said that to you when he gave you that keychain bracelet, right after he found out you were pregnant with Ian. Don't let him forget it. I sure haven't. No one else can help him like you can.

[Barb NY]

Kendall..Hannah was definitely crazy. She ruined her own life but there's no way you can let her ruin Zach's. You have to be there for him. You have to comfort him and let him know how much you love him and need him. Don't let him go to anyone else for comfort. Remember and remind him..Always only you. Your husband and sons must be your first priority. Put your friendships on hold for now and concentrate on Zach. He needs you now more than ever.

[CindyK]

Kendall,

Hannah never let go of the past and lived in a fantasy world dreaming of the 18 year old man she met so long ago. Because she knew Zach lived in the present and there was no room for her there, she chose to let go of Zach's hand to her final destiny.

The guilt he feels for not saving Hannah is undeserved. In time with your love those wounds will heal.

[cmn]

You are absolutely right Kendall. Hannah was crazy and she got her revenge. I hope that you are able to make Zach see that she wasn't worth saving and that he isn't responsible for what happened to her. She made a deliberate decision to let go and fall and nobody is to blame for that except her. What Zach needs most right now is to spend a lot of time just with you and his boys. You need to reconnect and be able to relax and enjoy your life for a change.

[Becky, Brandon, MS]

Don't get too comfortable, Kendall. That whole thing was just too easy...too easy and too convenient.
Don't count ole Hannah out yet. Something tells me she'll be a tough ole broad to get rid of.

[MrsK]

Kendall,

Zach and Hannah were lovers for a very brief time as teenagers. Hannah knew that she never would have a piece of his heart again because with you in his life Zach's heart is full and there is room for no one else.

Zach may be feeling overwhelming guilt but you will help him get through it as only you can...no matter how much Zach tried to save Hannah in the end she chose death.

[Tigereye]

Oh Kendall!

How well you know your man! Zach will need you because he does have a tendency to go to these dark places and you and your children are his lifeline. Just be with Zach, Kendall. You'll make sure that both of you come out of this in the end, intact, together, and stronger than ever.

[Sharon]

Poor Zach is so tortured. I just wish he could have a moment's peace, just once. Stand by him Kendall & never let him go.
He loves you so. He still
is haunted by all the evil
things his Father did to him & frankly, I'm not sure he will ever fully escape all that horror. But you are the one thing
he loves above all else &he can get through it with you by his side.

[HalfPint]

Kendall,

For reasons unknown and unclear...is suicide ever clear...Hannah chose to end it all rather than be rescued. No matter how hard Zach tried to save her Hannah purposely let go of his hand. Any guilt Zach feels is undeserved, and I believe that you will make him see that along with Spike and Ian.

[Jen]

Kendall,

You understand your husband so well. You were each all about your other half today. The "I love yous" exchanged by the two of you were perfect! The feisty Kendall was back fighting for your man by bringing up Zach's promise about not leaving again. The space you gave him while at the same time listening to him was just what Zach needed. Most of all, explaining that it was not Zach's fault (you might have to continue to do so for a bit) was important. All the touches, conversation and mutual understanding is what make "Zendall" a supercouple that you are! Just continue to remind Zach how much you and the boys love him in the coming days and you two will grow stronger together!

[Sarah]

Kendall,

I hate her too. She has caused your family all kinds of hurt and suffering and now Zach is suffering even more by feeling responsible for her death. You and I know that Zach has nothing to feel guilty about. He didn't know she was pregnant and waiting for him. He didn't know that she spent the next 25 or so years angry and bitter about it.

When Zach goes to that dark place, you are the one person who can pull him back. He needs you Kendall, your strength, your exuberance, your craziness at times, your zest for life. You and the boys are going to help him be over this final nightmare with Hannah.

[Onamia]

Kendall,

Hannah was a very unstable and ill person who in the end even Zach's rescue could not save because of the choices Hannah and Hannah alone wanted. It would not of mattered how hard Zach tried because this is what Hanna wanted. No one can be held responsible for the actions of another nor should they be. In time and with your love Zach will come to understand and realize that.

[MissUnderstood]

Kendall,

Zach should not blame himself and should not feel guilty because Hannah was mentally ill. There was nothing he or anybody else could of done. I also don't think we have the full story and with Hannah gone that now rests with Alexander.

[zndlfan]

Kendall, you are correct, this one is going to haunt Zach for sometime...just like Ethan's death does. You know him better than ANYONE...you know him better than he knows himself sometimes. I know Zach may not be able to discuss this with you...you know with patience he will turn to you. He is scared of losing you...he is fearful that he couldn't save Hannah and he won't be able to save you. Him turning to "someone" else is not a threat...he LOVES YOU and he does not want to scare you or let you see his dark side. In the end Kendall, I know YOU will be the one to help Zach through this. You need Zach AND Zach needs you...you are each others heart and soul. Hang onto that and fight for some happy times an laughter...IT IS SO DESERVED.

[phyllisshnell]

I hated her too..She was too caught up in the past. I hate that you and Zach has yet another tragedy to deal with.
I know that you and only you will be able to help Zach see that he has nothing to feel guilty about. I hope you guys get some happiness soon and get to spend some alone time with Spike and Ian.

[Lara]

Kendall, You are so right about Hannah. I hope you are able to convice Zach. The two of you deserve some much needed time together and alone. I am glad that Hannah is gone, I just wish she had taken some other people with her. You, Zach, Ian, and SPike deserve a break from the constant angst.

[Zanna]

Kendall

you are right Zach is going to blame himself for not being able to save Ethan's mother you are going to be strong for Zach and try to show him that she let go that what she want to do that it is not his fault. I believe by loving him and the boys loving him will get him over this next step on guilt