Escapism

Thursday, November 29, 2007

I need to find another outlet - I mean, blogging definitely helps - but how much can I talk about myself without thinking about Zach... he's all I can think about. How long he's been gone, if he's okay - if he's even still... I wish I could just fall asleep and when I wake up he's back, in my arms - watching over our children. But this... this living in the constant middle - waiting for some kind of happy ending... this kind of "existing" is eating me up inside out. How do I escape?

Comments

[Barb NY]

Kendall..I guess the only way you can "escape" is by keeping busy. Having two babies to care for will keep you busy. Try to be positive. You know that Zach will come back and you WILL have your happy ending!

[Sarah]

Kendall,

Erica is on to something with the book. Writing will give you something to do other than wait and it might keep you out of that dark place you shouldn't go...at least for a little while.

Don't give up on that happy ending though. Team Slater is going to get it!!

[cmn]

There are no escapes Kendall. No matter how much you wish this was all a bad dream you cannot escape it. You need to rely on your family - Erica, Josh, Lily, and the boys - and never give up hope and never stop trying to find Zach. Take solace in the strong bond and deep love that you and Zach have for each other. Don't ever despair because Zach will be coming home to you!

[Jules]

Writing is an interesting way to pass the time. I guess I'd rather see you turning over every rock, questioning every resident in the state, looking for your husband, but if you write something which helps you to stay connected to Zach, allowing you to watch over your two young sons at the same time, that's okay, too. Or maybe you could start the book, get inspired to go out and get your husband back, come hell or high water, get Rachel to watch the kids, and bring Zach home where he belongs! Yeah, that's what I'd prefer to see.

[kelly]

Zach will be home soon.Just in time for Christmas!By the way he is the hottest guy on tv!!

[CindyK]

Kendall,

How about making a scrapbook of Ian and Spike too? Although I'm sure Zach won't be gone that long, babies do change from day to day, and I think it would give Zach great pleasure to see them both in Red Wing gear. Or a you could take a page from Erica and write a book.

BTW I agree with Zach...too much Greenlee talk.

[MrsK]

Kendall,

Because Zach is a part of you and your soul I just don't know if it possible NOT to think about him and where he is and if he is safe. There is no "escape" from that type of intense love...but I know you will do whatever it takes to stay strong and focused on getting Zach safely back home.

I'm also not clear on how Erica's plea for Greenlee's safe return could make Greenlee a bigger target. Law enforcement is already aware of her escape. Jack needs to back off because Erica's heart was in the right place.

[HalfPint]

Kendall,

I have faith you'll find the outlet you are searching for because you are one of the most creative and imaginative person in Pine Valley. I would suggest you keep the Red Wings jersey when Zach returns.

Greenlee using Zach's delirium to get information is low even for her, and she needs a lesson on what humility is. Most people who have rescued others do it because it's the right thing to do...not because they expect to be rewarded.

[Kelly]

Kendall, How about getting your butt back to work! By working at Fusion or running Cambias, you have now found the perfect way of escaping your heartbreak.

[Annie]

Kendall, Kendall, Kendall.....you don't need to "escape", you need to focus on finding your husband. Do you think for one minute that, if you were missing, Zach would sink into despair? Hell no!!! He would be out there, moving heaven and earth to find you! You need to do the same thing. Rely on Erica nad Josh to take care of your boys, you go find your husband. You know he isn't dead, you feel that. You would know if he was. The greatest love story that Myrtle, or any of us, has ever seen is you and Zach. So, get of your cute little backside and GO FIND YOUR MAN!

[Kristen]

Kendall..

Zach is strong, determined and loves you and your boys more than anything or anyone in this world. That doesn't take away your worry, your fear or you hatred of the waiting game.

You need to stay strong for him and for your family - keeping your mind occupied is not a bad idea. No, you can't turn your mind off and stop thinking about Zach, you love him and miss him, but finding an outlet to do something other than staring at the phone is good.

You enjoy writing, go for it, who knows, maybe it will work. And then, you need to go out and look for Zach.

He needs you to save him this time around.

Kristen

[Anne]

Kendall, I really feel for you. You must be going mad. I know I would.

You can only think about Zach, well he can only think about you. He's even envisioning Greenlee as you.

Please do not give up the fight, cause if you do than Zach will also. I just know that he will be home before you know it.

Escaoe by writing a fictional romance based on yours and Zach's relationship. I know I would buy it!!!!

[April]

Kendall

I know it is hard for you right now but you have to believe Zach will come home to you and the boys very soon.

love

April

[ranger1]

We ALL wish Zach were back in your arms right now! Don't give up hope and keep the home fires burning. Hopefully, Zach will be home soon! I really miss seeing you two together. When Zach does find his way home, you two need to go on a honeymoon! You never got the chance to take one. We would love to see that!!!!!