Summer
Thursday, August 23, 2007
It's the summer. It's supposed to be a fun time of year. And it's so not. I have one son I can't touch and another who can't hear me, and I am sick to death of talking, complaining, freaking out about all of it. I should be 6 months pregnant with Ian and taking Spike to the park to check out the carnival or something. Instead - hospital, hospital, hospital. Please tell me your summer has been better than mine. I need to know life is good outside of these sterile walls.
Kendall,
I know that even on a good day you and Ryan don't always see eye to eye...but you made the right decision letting Spike stay with Ryan.
Today I know was not one of your better days...and Ryan's attitude didn't help one bit...his calling you names and giving ultimatums are what I expect from him...I also noticed he changed his tune as soon as Zach was there. I'm glad that at least Ian had a good day gaining weight and a visit from Aunt Lilly.
My summer is going well...I've had a chance to do some genealogical research at our state historical society which I enjoy immensely.
Posted by: CindyK | August 23, 2007 at 08:10 PM
No, Kendall my summer has not been any better because
I'm watching you go thru this everyday! It must be
the nightmare to end all, but hang on tight to Zach &
it just has to get better.
Posted by: Sharon | August 23, 2007 at 08:14 PM
Kendall.. You have had a very rough summer but everything will get better. Ian is doing better and will improve. Before you know it you will be holding him and feeding him. I think it will be easier for you to bond with him when you can actually hold him and kiss him and just love him to pieces. Spike is out of the hospital and you and Ryan and Zach and Annie will be able to decide what is best for him. As soon as things start to improve, I think you will start to feel better and not be so depressed.
Posted by: Barb NY | August 23, 2007 at 08:15 PM
Kendall,
Spike staying with Ryan makes sense but I really have a problem with Ryan's attitude...and today was no different...he's still very controlling when it comes to making decisions regarding Spike. He has a lot of chutzpah asking for your respect when he gives little in return. Despite saying he would never exclude you from the decision making process he's already done that on more than one occasion...when he took Spike during the Satin Slayer murders and again insisiting that Greenlee be a part of Spike's life.
So sweet when you sang "Itsy Bitsy Spider" to Spike and so sad when you had to say goodbye. Great news about Ian and his weight gain.
Summer's almost coming to and end and it's state fair time...good times.
Posted by: MrsK | August 23, 2007 at 08:18 PM
Kendall,
Even when Ryan is trying to do something nice...he comes across as a bully calling you a "crazy woman" and giving orders like "Spike is coming home with me whether you like it or not". His attitude toward you really bothers me...although I know Spike staying with Ryan is the best decision for you and your family. Thankfully, it's only temporary.
Great news...not only is Ian hanging in there but has gained more weight. You'll be holding the little guy before you know it.
BTW Krystal and Babe deserved every vile word coming their way after virtually kidnapping Miranda for almost an entire year.
Posted by: HalfPint | August 23, 2007 at 08:30 PM
Can't say that mines been different. I have a son who has hearing problems that not even an implant can help. He is completely deaf in one ear and partially in the other, however a hearing aid helps the one and it took me a year of fighting medicaid but I finally got it and boy is it a blessing. I can definately relate to kendal and her need to do whatever it takes for spike to hear again. If there was a line for a cure I'd be first in line.
Posted by: carrie | August 23, 2007 at 08:36 PM
Kendall,
After seeing today's exchange with Ryan...I can't believe at one time I actually thought you made a great couple. Thankfully,that was a long time ago and since then you've found Zach...someone who treats you with the utmost respect you deserve. Even as angry as he was recently...he never reduced himself to name calling or ultimatums or tried to control you. Ryan's condenscending attitude is why I've lost all respect for this character...and why I wish you hadn't given him parental rights.
And I'd say that keeping a child away from her mother earned Krystal and Babe every wicked word Pine Valley can come up.
Posted by: Brainerd | August 23, 2007 at 08:42 PM
My summer was fun.My oldest grandaughter stayed with me. We did the little outside pool thing, made pickles,did a few crafty things...and she helped me with the 6 month old.It was lots of fun...until she had to start kindergarten (we start early in the South). I was devastated.I miss her so much.It's 100 degrees with a heat index of 105 and greater,my herbs are dying and I'm hotter than the nailed down hinges of Hell.
..but everyone here is healthy...so I'm content and counting my blessings.
PS:I taught myself sign language and it's wonderful being able to communicate with the hearing impaired.I'm not great but I can break the communication barrier!
Posted by: Becky, Brandon, MS | August 23, 2007 at 08:52 PM
kendall
my son was born 1 1/2 pounds in december. I know exactly what you mean when you say hospital, hospital, hospital. i lived there and was also addmitted back in while my son was in nicu (i was in ICU so they wouldn't let me see him) it was a very scary time. Finally in February we brought him home and i have spent all summer just watching him grow, learn and gain weight. he is an amazing miracle, every single breath Ian takes is a miracle too. he will be home with you soon enough. Until then stay strong and know that one day you will look back at this and say oh my god how far we have come and you will say that you can't believe you made it through. Ian will be home for Christmas and spike will help open his gifts.
stay strong.
Posted by: kristin | August 23, 2007 at 09:49 PM
Kendall, things will get better. You heard Zach, Ian gained weight. He only needs to gain another quarter or half ounce and you will be able to hold him. That is wonderful news.
Spike will be fine with Ryan, the pompous ass. You will get to have home with you soon.
Your summer will get better, I promise.
My summer hasn't been that great. My best friend just found out she has cancer and started her chemo and radiation treatments. She's having a rough time of it and there is nothing I can do for her except be there for her.
Cheer up, you have Zach and your boys, I know things will get better, it just has to.
Posted by: Anne | August 24, 2007 at 03:54 AM
Your sons will get better
Posted by: Brooke | August 24, 2007 at 10:09 AM
Dear Kendall
My summer day was going to the festival. Festivals are also a cool place to go, trying new things, eating the goods, and celebrating. Don't worry too much Kendall. To this point, Spike and Ian will get the chance to have their summer day to enjoy the new things that they haven't been or try something new yet. They will get it, just believe it.
Posted by: Dani | August 24, 2007 at 02:50 PM
Kendall, life is good outside those sterile walls and you will see that soon. You will have both your babies home and safe and have those two boys fighting with each other in no time at all. Keep faith that Spike will hear again and Ian will grow into a big strong boy. Just try to trust Ryan a little more, he is a great father.
Posted by: Becky | August 25, 2007 at 11:31 AM