Ian's big day
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Did you see Zach hold Ian? Those pictures are adorable. I can't wait to see it in person. And Ian... so close to busting out of that incubator. I just know it. He's so fragile, so tiny - he's our son. Our little boy. And Zach is amazing with him. All of those worries Zach had about being a father to his own child... when he looks at Ian... those fears melt away. I used to be jealous - Julia, Dixie, anyone that stole Zach's attention from me. But... with Ian, and Spike - I become more and more in love with my husband the more he falls in love with our children. I didn't know love, parenting worked that way... but it does.
Dear Kendall
Seeing Zach with Ian.. it just melts your heart and words can't describe it. Zach is definitely the best husband and also the best father. You're one lucky gal there. Don't worry, you'll get that chance to hold him and when you do, he will know that his mom will always love him and be there for him, with Zach and Spike.
Posted by: Eve | August 30, 2007 at 02:26 PM
Kendall,
The only thing better than seeing Zach with Ian would be seeing the three of you together. While I am hoping to see you hold Ian as well...seeing you both checking in on your son was short but very sweet.
Every day I fall in love with Erica more and appreciate how hard she is trying to be there for her family. I teared up a little as she hugged Zach. I too can't wait to see Ian on the frozen pond behind your home and am rooting for the little guy.
Posted by: CindyK | August 30, 2007 at 02:30 PM
Kendall,
I loved seeing Zach holding Ian and I'm touched that your still thinking about Zach's insecurities in becoming a father. Now, it's time for Mommy to spend quality time with that beautiful baby. Little Ian will get bigger and stronger, but he needs both his parents to do so.
Posted by: Tigereye | August 30, 2007 at 02:40 PM
Kendall,
As someone who has two girls, I was worried about some of those same feelings when I was pregnan with our first child ...but you are so right...I gained a whole new respect for my husband when he became a father.
It is quite clear just how much Zach loves his family and children...and seeing Zach holding Ian only solidified that. Erica really has been impressing me by her steadfast support not only of you but especially today with that hug for Zach. I think she finally gets what we've all seen for years...that Zach truly is the only man who loves you completely. Seeing the two of you watch over Ian was touching but too short.
And I am not surprised you got Hilliard back on Spike's case...not only are you determined...but I still don't trust the good doctor. I know you have faith in this man...but please have the vitamins analyzed before giving them to Spike.
Posted by: HalfPint | August 30, 2007 at 02:54 PM
I'm so glad you visited Ian today, Kendall. I can't wait to see you hold Ian, and I'm very happy that the thought of you doing that is no longer making you run for the hills. Zach was so beautiful with Ian, and Erica's description and Josh's photo of them doesn't begin to do them justice. You should love Zach like a crazy woman because he is the absolute best husband you could have. So I'll just take a moment and plead for you to tell him what you're doing with Spike and Dr. Hilliard so that there are no more secrets between you. He knows something's up. Now tell him.
Posted by: Jules | August 30, 2007 at 03:01 PM
Kendall..Zach has been fantastic with Ian. He has been there for him throughout this whole ordeal. He is really an amazing Dad. You know how wonderful he has always been with Spike and how much he loves him. For that reason alone you should include him in any treatment Spike has with Dr. Hilliard. Zach has always supported you. Doesn't the fact that you don't want to tell Zach about Dr. Hilliard agreeing to treat Spike make you think that you may have some doubts. Don't give Spike any "vitamins" without checking them and him out first. Confide in Zach. He wants what is best for Spike also.
Posted by: Barb NY | August 30, 2007 at 03:03 PM
Kendall,
Yep...seeing Zach with Ian is amazing and oh so sweet, but the best part is that Erica finally sees what we've all known for years...Zach's a gem, not only as a husband but as a father as well.
With Hilliard back on Spike's case you need to talk to Zach. Unlike Ryan, Zach truly does have an open mind. He also could have Hilliard checked out with just a few short phone calls and is one of Spike's biggest cheerleaders.
Annie is just bringing her troubles to Hotel Slater and needs to be honest...she could be putting Spike in some danger here...why else would she imagine Ryan dead?
Posted by: Onamia | August 30, 2007 at 03:59 PM
Kendall,
Those were adorable pictures, and seeing Zach hold Ian for the first time was wonderful!
I am concerned for you though. I know you feel guilty about what happend with Spike, and you think that by being concerned for Ian you turned you back on Spike. But you didn't, you've been the best mother to Spike and no one thinks any less of you for focusing on Ian when you went into labor. You are a good mother Kendall!
I am worried though, because you are letting your guilt over what happend to Spike take away from Ian. While you are feeling like you turned your back on Spike you are actually doing that to Ian. I know you love him, how could not. But he needs his mommy now too. So show Ian some of that Kendall love I know you have in you, you can and will be a great mom to both your boys!
Posted by: Sara | August 30, 2007 at 04:37 PM
Oh, Kendall,I DID cry when Zach held Ian. Ian is so loved and so lucky to have both you and Zach as his parents. When Ian is big strong boy, running through the house chasing big daddy with a hockey stick, you'll wonder if these days were but a bad dream. Ian, Spike, Kendall, Zach -- a perfect family. Keep your smile. Keep your hope.
Posted by: mvvm | August 30, 2007 at 04:38 PM
Kendall: No doubt about it, Zach will be a wonderful father to both Ian and Spike. He's a special guy, so full of love and compassion.
Loved seeing Zach hold Ian. It was just so sweet and adorable. He's crazy about that little guy and can't wait for the day that you two can bring him home.
Looking forward to you holding and bonding with Ian, too. I know you'll be a fabulous Mother just like you are to Spike.
These are two lucky little boys to have special parents like you and Zach!
Posted by: SandyR | August 30, 2007 at 05:08 PM
Kendall:
Focus on these moments! Everything will be fine!
Posted by: melanie | August 30, 2007 at 05:28 PM
Kendall:
That is unconditional love and it is the best!
Posted by: anonymous | August 30, 2007 at 05:29 PM
Kendall...
All I can say is - tell Zach. He needs to hear from you just how much you love him and love seeing him with your boys.
The two of you really need some time together - especially everything that has happened. Give him that Kendall.
And as much as it will be wonderful for you to see your husband holding the baby your love for each other created, it will be wonderful for you to hold Ian as well.
Kristen
Posted by: Kristen | August 30, 2007 at 06:04 PM
Kendall, It was wonderful seeing Zach hold Ian. The only thing better would have been seeing both of you hold Ian. Ii agree about how wonderful a father Zach has become. You are also a wonderful mother. Both Ian and Spike are so lucky to have you and Zach, and Erica.
Posted by: Anne | August 30, 2007 at 07:19 PM
Kendall, you are so right! It is a joy to watch Zach holding his precious little Ian! I am just so overjoyed & emotionally spent seeing how completely devoted Zach is to that little boy. He's waited his whole life for this & I know it's hard for you now to join in, but
just be happy at least that
Zach is having these wonderful bonding moments &
maybe soon you can have your chance to hold Ian, too. And Erica, just wow,
she blew me away today because she sees what I see
when I look at Zach with that child. Sorry for the tear stains!
Posted by: Sharon | August 30, 2007 at 08:05 PM
Kendall, that was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen when Zach was holding Ian. I wish you had been there so you could have held him too. That little boy just melts my heart. What a beautiful family you have. You and Zach are great parents and your boys are very lucky. I know your attention is divided right now between Spike and Ian, but I miss seeing you with Ian. I hope you get to spend some good quality time with him soon. I can’t wait to see him in your arms. You also need some good quality time with that fine hubby of yours.
Posted by: tkpoetry | August 30, 2007 at 08:31 PM
Kendall
I love seeing Zach hold Ian I hope to see you holding Ian very soon. also can't wait to see both you and Zach holding Ian together. I really hope that you and Zach can take Ian home soon so the 4 of you can be together.
love
April
Posted by: April | August 31, 2007 at 03:05 AM
Kendall,
Zach definitely is an awesome father...but you already knew that because unlike Adam Chandler...to Zach DNA doesn't matter. Zach has loved Spike from the moment you knew you wanted to be a mom and treats him as his son. And Ian is remarkable as well and not just because he carries the Slater name...a name that you helped Zach learn to be proud of.
Posted by: MeMe | August 31, 2007 at 09:05 AM
Kendall, your husband is the most amazing man in the world. He would give up his life for you and your children. I know you are focusing on Spike now and you desperately want to find a cure for his deafness, but don't forget Zach. He too is going through hell and needs to feel your love and comfort.
Don't short change him. Every day show him just how much you love and appreciate him.
Posted by: Diva, New York | August 31, 2007 at 09:20 AM