Mom doesn't know best
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
It's too soon. It's way too soon for me to deliver this baby - but if I don't... My babies are in danger and there's not a damn thing I can do to fix it. I'm their mother! I should know the right answer. I should know how to protect them and make their boo-boos go away. And I am trying. I am fighting like hell to not give birth. But it's not good enough. Why isn't it good enough? Why can't I be their mommy right now. I just want to be their mommy. The mom who saves the day. The mom who always knows where her kids are. The mom who knows what the hell to do in a panic. But I guess I'm not that mom, because I don't know where Spike is, and I don't know how to keep my tiny baby inside so he'll be safe... so he'll live. But... If I lose my children I won't be any kind of mom at all...
Unfortunately, you can't control the situation, Kendall. Mother Nature, and Greenlee's selfishness, had other plans. But the one thing you can do is fight for your children and never lose faith that Spike will be returned to you, and that Baby Boy Slater will be a healthy and happy bouncing baby boy. Listen to Erica's words of wisdom, and hold on tight to Zach, and Team Slater will be OK.
Posted by: Jules | July 25, 2007 at 07:58 PM
Sweetheart, I'm so sorry you have to go through this.It's really tough when you discover that you can't protect your children from everything in the world.Please don't blame yourself.You are a GREAT mom.If I could kick Greenlee's ass for you, I would do it. You hold on to your hope with BabyBoySlater...it ain't over til it's over and my God's in the miracle workin' business!
Posted by: Becky, Brandon, MS | July 25, 2007 at 08:18 PM
Kendall..You are a magnificent mom. My heart broke watching you today. You are fighting for both of your babies and doing a good job. You heard Erica tell you that you are a strong Kane woman and that is just what you are. You will do your best for both of your sons and they will both survive.
Posted by: Barb NY | July 25, 2007 at 08:18 PM
Kendall,
Both of your children are very lucky to have you as their mom...a mom that will fight until her last breath to make sure her kids are safe...just like your own mother, Erica.
I adore both of you in protective mode...and Erica was dead on reminding you about your core of steel and how you fought so hard for Spike when you were in the coma. You are not a quitter...Baby Slater has his own ideas and is going to make an appearance regardless. Zach will be with you cheering you on and Mona too.
Posted by: CindyK | July 25, 2007 at 08:26 PM
Kendall,
You will not lose your children...I firmly believe that. Erica was right when she reminded you just how hard you fought last year for Spike. Zach won't let you give up and as Erica said, the Kanes are not quitters. With Zach by your side and with a large dose of Mona for luck and Myrtle for good measure you'll get through this. As one of the best parents on the planet (the other being Zach) you'll make it and so will Baby Slater and Spike.
Posted by: HalfPint | July 25, 2007 at 08:42 PM
Kendall,
Because your water broke, there is no other option but to deliver Baby Slater. It's not going to be easy because apparently he is just as stubborn as his mother...which is a good thing because that means he's a fighter as well...with that core of steel. Spike's going to be okay as well...I can feel it.
Loved Erica and how she talked about all the support and love you and your family have...and the nod to Zach as well. When she mentioned Mona, it brought me back to when you first showed up in Pine Valley and how she was the first to recognize you as her granddaughter. When she saw the birthmark on the back of your neck, she knew and thought of the time she held you after you were born. Mona looked after you then...and I know you and your sons can count on her again.
Posted by: Anonymous | July 25, 2007 at 08:54 PM
Kendall, stop beating yourself up & just try to
relax as much as possible.
You're doing all you can now. I feel so much of you and Zach's pain & I just know that one day it'll all be better & you &
Zach will look back on this & it will be a distant memory. You're so
lucky to have that wonderful man by your side.
The pain in his face is killing me.
Posted by: Sharon | July 25, 2007 at 09:16 PM
Kendall,
Just hang on. You've got good medical staff around you and you know they will do everything for your baby. And you Zach is doing everything to find Spike. Panicking isn't going to help anyone, so take a deep breath. It'll be okay.
Posted by: Tigereye | July 25, 2007 at 09:57 PM
Kendall, don't be so hard on yourself. Like Zach said, you are a beautiful, incredible, wonderful Mom. You cannot stop what is happening. It is not your fault. Baby boy Slater will be born and he will live cause he's a fighter!!!!
Spike's being missing is not your fault either. You trusted Greenlee to bring him and she betrayed you once again.
Everything that has happened, the whole chain of events is Ryan and Greenlee's fault not yours.
Have Faith, you will be with your children soon!!!!!
Posted by: Anne | July 26, 2007 at 03:45 AM
I'm praying for your boys to be okay you have to keep the faith that everything will be okay.
love
April
Posted by: April | July 26, 2007 at 04:17 AM
Kendall, you ARE a good mother, don't doubt yourself. You are not responsible for what Greenlee did. Greenlee is the one responsible for all this. She is the reason you were so stressed that you went into labor early, she is the reason Spike is in danger, and she is the reason your renewed stress over Spike caused your water to break, and your tiny baby will be born too soon. It is NOT your fault, not in any way. Listen to Zach and listen to your mother. I can't believe I am saying this, but Erica is right. Just have faith that your little baby has yours and Zach's fighting genes...and he will make it, he will be just fine, and so will Spike.
Posted by: Annie | July 26, 2007 at 07:23 AM
Kendall, you WON'T lose your children! Please try and stay strong, everything will be alright for you and your family! I'm so sorry about Spike, and I wish that you had listened to Zach about Greenlee, because he was so right! I know that you meant well, but Greenlee was NOT meant to be trusted, as I'm sure you know now! You're in my prayers Kendall, you and your beautiful family.
Posted by: Zen Fan | July 26, 2007 at 07:51 AM
Kendall,
No mother can be Super Mom all the time. You are a mom that loves her boys with everything you have. That love will help them get through this crisis.
Posted by: Sarah | July 26, 2007 at 08:16 AM
To Kendall
Don't talk that kind of stuff. You are the best mother that Spike and baby X can ever ask for. You are by far the greatest mother who knows her kids well. Know this, Spike will be back in your arms and your other son will make it. They both have to. Don't give up the fight. The Kendall I know would never do something coward like giving up. Those two boys are counting on you and so does Zach. He's with you every step of the way.
Posted by: Riley | July 26, 2007 at 02:43 PM
girl relax you are a great mother,sister,daughter,auntie,friend,and wife.your family is there for you and so are your fans.
Posted by: charlie | July 26, 2007 at 03:16 PM