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Friday, July 27, 2007
I get to see my babies soon. I need to see them and be with them. Be close to Spike and my other little guy. He's so little... too little. I wish I could feed him myself - I hate that he's hooked up to all those wires and tubes and he's in that plastic box. I hated when Spike was in one - it kept me from him that much more. I don't want to be away from either of my sons - I can't. Look what happens. I let Spike out of my sight and... I just need to see him. Know he's okay after his surgery. Having a baby is supposed to be such a happy experience - why am I cursed? Why am I so sad for my sons?
Kendall your babies are going to fight. Ryan is taking care & keeping an eye on Spike...Spike knows that you love him. He would want you to worry about the baby. Spike can fight..he just wants his little baby brother to survive so he can know his mommy.
Posted by: Ash | July 27, 2007 at 05:42 PM
Kendall,
It's only natural that you want to be there for both of your children and take their pain away. Just remember that kids are very resilient...sometimes I think it's harder on the parents. Although they shouldn't have to, both of your sons will show you just what fighters they are.
Right now it may seem like you are cursed, and it may even get worse before things get better...but with Zach as your husband and with a mother like Erica on your side you are truly blessed. I had to make sure I heard correctly today as she told you how wrong she was to try and keep you and Zach apart. As she touched Zach on the arm it's quite apparent she knows just how much Zach loves you and how well he has been caring for you. And Kendall, I understand completely how you can't say no to the MAHN...heehee...his comment about that's how you got pregnant in the first place really lightened the moment.
I was also cheering Erica on when she laid into Greenlee...and like the weasel Greenlee is...she still was all about self preservation...lying to protect herself. Who gets lost 20 miles in the opposite direction? Jackson may want to believe the best about his daughter but he is in denial. Deep down he knows Greenlee is responsible for Spike's injuries and whether she saved his life or not does not absolve her of her complicity.
Posted by: CindyK | July 27, 2007 at 06:08 PM
Kendall..You will see your sons soon and see that they are getting the best of care. Everyone is praying for them. They both are tough and are fighters. You can't blame yourself for letting Spike out of your sight. You had no way of knowing what was going to happen. You have to look ahead and have faith that they both will be okay.
Posted by: Barb NY | July 27, 2007 at 06:14 PM
Kendall..You will see your sons soon and see that they are getting the best of care. Everyone is praying for them. They both are tough and are fighters. You can't blame yourself for letting Spike out of your sight. You had no way of knowing what was going to happen. You have to look ahead and have faith that they both will be okay.
Posted by: Barb NY | July 27, 2007 at 06:15 PM
My hopes and prayers are with you Kendall.
Posted by: Christy | July 27, 2007 at 06:17 PM
Kendall,
No wonder you feel sad...you and Zach have just been given a double dose of tragedy...and your two innocent children are suffering. It's only human to feel the way you do. Just remember you can count on Zach ...love the way he takes such good care of you...and the long hawt kiss. Even without makeup and having gone through hell...you and Zach make one sexy couple!
Gotta say Erica was great today as well...loved her apologies and her sincerity as she admitted she was wrong for trying to keep you and Zach from each other. It was good to see she finally sees Zach for the man he is and just how much he loves you and your children.
Mama Kane and her wrath were best reserved for Greenlee as Erica told her to tell the truth for once in her sorry life and that Greenlee was guilty as hell. Always loved Erica...but now even more so.
Posted by: MrsK | July 27, 2007 at 06:26 PM
Kendall,
No family should ever have to go through what you, Zach and your children are going through. I think you and your feelings will continue on this rollercoaster ride. Take care of yourself and as Erica said, "listen to Zach". Both of your children need their mother and father to continue to be strong so they can regain their strength. Lean on each other...and Erica. She was on fire today smacking down Greenlee for what she did to Spike and also in her apology to Zach for doubting his love for you. At least now she's finally opened her eyes and sees what an incredible guy Zach really is.
Greenlee would not of been in the position of having to save Spike's life had she followed you and Babe directly to the hospital. She made a decision not based on what was best for Spike but on what SHE wanted. She committed a crime and the fact she changed her mind does not absolve her of that or of Spike's injuries.
Posted by: HalfPint | July 27, 2007 at 06:41 PM
I know you are sad and scared right now but I think that under the circumstances you are being very brave and strong. Your boys are little miracles and they will be okay. Remember your husband needs a hand to hold and a hug too! We love Team Slater---all 4 of you will pull through together! P.S. Glad to see you are breastfeeding..very good the Zaby.
Posted by: ranger1 | July 27, 2007 at 07:41 PM
You need to talk to Josh. He has this amazing way of seeing Baby Boy Slater and knowing that he's a miracle. You survived your coma last year, which was a miracle. Zach survived his father's torture, which was a miracle. The two of you gave that little boy your miraculous genes. Hold on to that.
As for Spike, you'll be with him very soon, and he'll be OK. He's got two loving sets of parents who would do anything for him. But you cannot forgive Greenlee for this. Not now, and not ever.
Posted by: Jules | July 27, 2007 at 08:48 PM
You love those babies so much, it's only natural to be sad cause they are hurting.
Zach was so sweet. He's really putting on a good front, but deep down inside he is as scared as you.
Erica, WOW!!!!!!! She's really turned a corner. It was great to see her step up and admit she was wrong. It took alot to do that.
Kendall, you will be with your babies soon.
My advice to you, next time you are pregnant, and there will be a next time, have Zach take you, Spike and his little brother, far, far away from Pine Valley for 9 months so you can have a normal preganancy, but take us with you cause we don't want to miss a single moment.
Keep the Faith!
Anne
Posted by: Anne | July 28, 2007 at 12:08 AM
Kendall..I really feel for you. Two babies in ICU is any mother's worst nightmare. I cried with you too. You know that your babies are getting the best of care. You remember how well Spike did when he was born and this new little one will too. You just have to have faith that he and Spike will draw strength from you and Zach. Before you know it, you will have both those little boys in your arms.
Posted by: Barb NY | July 28, 2007 at 05:10 AM
My prayers are with you and your boys! Damn Greenlee for being so selfish!
Posted by: Ellie | July 28, 2007 at 06:51 AM
Kendall,
I want you to know that my prayers are with you for you and your beautiful boys. You asked your Mom how many miracles do we get? we get as many as we need because that's how much God loves us. God knows that you love your children and that is what makes you a great mother is the love that you have for your boys.So you and Zach and Ryan just keep loving and praying over those boys. And Let God do his thing.
Posted by: Tisha318 | July 29, 2007 at 10:30 AM
Kendall,
It's understandable that you would be worried. Your children are a precious gift. Just listen to your mother there is Kane blood in those babies. Nothing can stop a Kane. Your little baby is twice as blessed because he has Slater blood too! A Slater/Kane combo can't be stopped! Actually I'm looking forward to all the mischief Baby Slater will get into in the future. I'm sure down the road he will be shaking up Pine Valley!!
Posted by: Kelsie | July 29, 2007 at 01:28 PM
Kendall has changed so much and deserves both of her boys alive and healthy.
Kendall has changed her life around, and became a wonderful person and a great mother.
Posted by: Cathy Casey | July 29, 2007 at 06:17 PM
You have no idea how hard it is for me to be watching you go through this. I have 2 little boy's, ages 3 and 1 and I get so worked up, yelling at the T.V and thinking, praying that it's gonna work out that way I want it to, The way it should! I cry, and cry and think, what if I were you? My heart just breaks for Kendell :( I have been watching AMC for year's and will continue to watch, I just pray that everything turn's out okay! Those boy's are fighter's so I know it will. Spike break's my heart most of all.. I just couldn't think about it being my boys.
Posted by: Laura Black | July 29, 2007 at 08:41 PM