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Friday, June 29, 2007
So next week is the Fourth of July/Independence Day and I can't wait for some fireworks, and family time. I want to be independent from the rest of the world and spend a day with my men - Spike and Zach. Hopefully that will happen. What about you? What does everyone have planned for the holiday?
Thursday, June 28, 2007
So I pretty much won the jackpot today. I mean –
Zach and I aren’t hurting for cash – but owning Chandler, Cambias, the casinos, Fusion –
we are – we’re rich. Spike, a baby on the way – Zach – I totally have it all.
So… If you all won the lotto – what would you do with all that dough?
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Work, work, work, work. First Annie, then
Amanda. I swear. So many issues. Greenlee will not fire Annie at Fusion.
Pulling your weight only gets you so far with a good employee. I would never
let that happen andAnnie is worth her weight… why do you think I hired her in
the first place. It’s not like I liked her so much then. She is totally
qualified. And Amanda… the girl has got it going on – and she is falling for
JR, too. Hard. I admit. I see what women see in him. He is gorgeous, confident,
rich, funny, rich (mentioned twice) and great in the sack – but he is lethal. Doesn’t
that outweigh it all?
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
So ladies who know… this pregnancy has been a
cakewalk for the most part. Weird! Well, not that Spike had me in pain or
anything – things were just so crazy and messed up between Zach and me and my
issues with having a child I wasn’t so sure about in the first place – all of
that pressure is off this time around, and I am (gasp) enjoying being pregnant.
Is that normal? It has to be. Not everyone has it rough the whole nine months –
but just in case I’m counting my chicken way before it hatches – do any of you
have interesting tales of woe from your days being preggers?
Monday, June 25, 2007
Hey. I am no pushover. We all know that. And
Zach should, too. I won’t let Greenlee steamroll over me – but I have some hope
we can find our way back to friends. Back to the good times. Like tonight… we
were incredible – just like the way it used to be. But… Greenlee and I have a
long way to go. I know that. I think she knows that. I just… want the chance to
see where it goes. Is that so insane?
Friday, June 22, 2007
I am high - on Fusion Green!! It's fantastic, the most amazing - it reminds me of a breeze, the beach with a subtle hint of rain forest and notes of heat. Refreshing and makes your temperature rise all at the same time. My favorite scent is obviously Zach - but what's yours? (And you can't say my husband!) What would your ideal fragrance be?
Thursday, June 21, 2007
We did it! Greenlee and I created magic once
again – this time in the form of Fusion Green. It’s fresh, it’s completely new,
it’s organic – it’s… Green! Eco-friendly green – not green green. You know what
I mean. And the best part… Greenlee and I were a team. We had some moments,
doubts – but I think we’re headed in the right direction back to friends. I really
believe we manufactured something amazing – for both Fusion and between us –
and it’s about damn time!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Simone wasn’t wrong. There is love waiting here
for Greenlee. There is more magic to create. Just look at Spike! He was the
most magical, perfect thing Greenlee and I created – and it wasn’t just by dumb
luck. It was because we were a great team – and I know we can get back there.
After I told her about my pregnancy – I saw in her eyes… she gets it. She
understands what Spike means to me. How I would give up my life so he’ll have a
full one. Simone would have wanted us to get past all the junk and just have
fun with all the good we can still grab. We’re going to recreate our old magic
if it’s the last thing we do.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
I need a summer vacation. I think we all do. So
where should I go? Where are you guys going?
Monday, June 18. 2007
I know most of you probably hate me right now.
Part of me hates myself, too. But there are so many emotions - guilt, pain,
loss, love, friendship – all swirling around when it comes to Greenlee. Maybe I
did the wrong thing – maybe I did the right thing. I don’t really know. She
looked so hurt… something was off when she held Spike. Maybe I gave her
closure, maybe I opened up a not even healed wound, maybe I gave her more of a
reason to come gunning at us – I have no idea. I feel like I owe her, a lot of
the time I pretty much hate her, some of the time I miss her... Maybe I’m
crazy? Hormonal? A “nice” person?
Friday, June 15, 2007
Greenlee’s everywhere. In my dreams, at work – my child’s sonogram is in her purse... I don’t know… the whole thing is just… I feel terrible for her – she did love this child very much. But then she pushes it – lawsuits, tantrums – I want her to be happy. I do. And I wish things could go back to normal – us as friends – but – UGH! I am just so frustrated and tired of talking about it. And now I have to go drop Spike off so he can vacay with Ryan and Annie and I’m going to miss him like crazy. At least nightmares end when you wake up – Greenlee… not so much.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
We totally pulled it off! Oh my God. That was
crazy! I totally thought George was going to walk out on us – our product –
Fusion – all kaput. And somehow – in some just-right cosmic alignment, Greenlee
and I – we were a team. Again. It almost made me forget the other stuff going
on – it was like I had my best friend back for a few minutes. And I missed her.
I miss conquering the world Fusion style like the old days. Is there a way to
bottle that – and have Greenlee start wearing it again?
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Am I the only one not drinking the spiked punch??
Now Ryan’s decided to give Spike mommy, mommy, mommy and me time? This isn’t a “who’s
the mama” contest. And it’s certainly not some survivor island challenge
between Ryan’s exes. My son is MY son. I’m not sharing him with Greenlee. And
as selfish as those words sound individually – it’s not selfish AT ALL. You
people are with me, right? Ryan perpetually suffers from “I-don’t-want-to-be-the-bad-guy”
syndrome or something. Newsflash: Greenlee’s that “guy.” She tried to have my
husband and Ryan arrested, and is suing for custody of a child that isn’t hers.
Deep end? Here she comes – ready to fall right off you. I’m not crazy, I’m not
stupid and I am not sharing my son.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Just when I think Greenlee’s hit rock bottom in
the crazy pool – now she thinks she can sue for custody of Spike?! The girl has
lost every marble she ever had – and she only had a few good ones left. I
freaked out a little at first – but then I realized this is just bratty
Greenlee throwing a temper tantrum the size of Oklahoma, trying to get out attention. And I won’t let her get
to me. Spike is my son. No judge will ever listen to this crock of a suit. Maybe…
if she channeled all her “bright ideas” into Fusion, we’d be back in the black.
But she’s too busy trying to be the biggest pain in the butt she can be. Well she
can choke on those legal papers while she begs for Babe to come back – Greenlee’s
not gonna win anything but everyone’s mutual loathing.
Friday, June 8, 2007
Last night scared me. I don’t think I’ve ever been that terrified. If I lost our… I didn’t. Thank God. Packing, venting… it all didn’t matter once I felt the pain. I really thought all the hope and love and sweetness Zach and I want for our baby was slipping away from us. I’ll do whatever the doctor tells me. I cannot lose our child – I cannot lose my family’s future – the happy one we’re all so excited about.
I’ve never miscarried – I don’t even pretend to know what that’s like. I know people who have and… Spike just means everything to me and so does baby x. It’s all going to be fine. Just take it easy and keep on loving my children. Just keep being a mom.
I am going to ignore everything else in my life
(Greenlee) and focus on how cute these are .
Credit: ABC/DONNA SVENNEVIK
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Maybe it’s over. Zach got through to Greenlee.
Right? There’s no proof Zach caused the blackout. And even if there were, she can’t turn the clock back –
Zach must have gotten through to her. It’s just… Greenlee is Greenlee and never
quits. But maybe she will quit this the way she quit us. She needs to move on –
I just pray she sees that.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
What does Greenlee think she’ll gain by making
everyone hate her? I would love to know. Zach will never just let her walk over
him. Hell, I won’t let her even try. My life is chaotic!! Not to mention my hormones
are surging like crazy. I’d be Red alert anyway with Greenlee, but add my
pregnancy to the mix – I’m ready to punt her back to whatever rock she crawled
out from. And what were Livia and Derek talking about with her for so long?
They can’t possibly back her. No. They wouldn’t. Everything will be fine – that’s
what I told myself while I couldn’t sleep last night. Sure. Like saying the
words ever works. Fusion is in a fast flush down the toilet and I’m a pregnant
woman ready to kill my partner. This day can’t get any better
Monday, June 4, 2007
That bitch! How dare Greenlee walk into my home (uninvited!)
and throw that garbage in our faces. Greenlee is more selfish and destructive than
ever. I thought ripping my dress off in court and almost getting me a death
sentence was the worst of it – now she’s aiming her hurt feelings straight for
my entire family. And Ryan! He just let that brat run her nasty mouth?!?! The
blackout is in the past. Over. And just because Greenlee decided to plop back
into our lives now doesn’t mean I am going to rehash an event we’ve all moved
on from. I’ll be damned if she’ll drag my husband from our children so she can
feel better about herself for a minute. I get it. I ended up with a beautiful
son and an amazing husband while she has no man, no baby and right now – no
friends. But torpedoing us… that’s not going to time travel her back to the
clinic, or bring back the child she lost, or make Ryan not play dead on her –
instead it makes me hate her for trying to take all the good in everyone’s lives
and stain it so she can wallow with company. I will never testify against my
husband. I don’t care what Annie, Greenlee, Ryan or the freakin’ Pope have to
say about it – Zach is staying right where he belongs – with Team Slater.
Friday, June 1, 2007
Some days I want to pop Greenlee’s head right off
and others… she was soaking wet, inside the house but still looking in at our
families. She was left out. Alone. Drenched. An island. A satellite. And I hate
that. Ryan and I were family to her – that doesn’t just go away, does it? She’s
a whole heap of difficult, but there is a ton of good mixed in. Her fight,
drive, passion – Greenlee’s fire – makes you love her despite the bitchiness.
If she’d let us all heal a little instead of pushing so hard, maybe we can come
out of this a family again? Maybe I’m wrong. What do you all think?
