ConFusion

Monday, June 18. 2007

I know most of you probably hate me right now. Part of me hates myself, too. But there are so many emotions - guilt, pain, loss, love, friendship – all swirling around when it comes to Greenlee. Maybe I did the wrong thing – maybe I did the right thing. I don’t really know. She looked so hurt… something was off when she held Spike. Maybe I gave her closure, maybe I opened up a not even healed wound, maybe I gave her more of a reason to come gunning at us – I have no idea. I feel like I owe her, a lot of the time I pretty much hate her, some of the time I miss her... Maybe I’m crazy? Hormonal? A “nice” person?

Comments

[Tigereye]

Kendall,

We all know you have this great, big, generous heart. But that great, big, generous heart blinds you some times. NEVER has Greenlee been your friend! She's a user, a taker, a manipulator and all around piece of Toxic Waste! I know you feel guilty. I know you feel bad for her. But this is Greenlee's OWN fault. It's her mess and it's HER job to pick herself up and get on with her life. It's not YOUR responsibility to do that nor is it Ryan's and for that egotistical rat to force this not only on you and Spike, but Zach and Annie as well as Emma is completely unacceptable! Greenlee created this mess that is her life and she's a grown woman, she can darn well fix it herself. YOU managed to do that. Now it's Greenlee's turn to grow up and fend for herself.

[Sheila]

Kendall you are WAY to nice and forgiving! You really need to stop feeling guilty for having a loving husband, terrific son, and a Baby on the way. Please listen to Zach. He sees Greenlee for the person she really is. A mean, vindictive, witch.

Don't let her back in your life or Spike's. She only wants to destroy your awesome family so you are as miserable as she is. Greenlee needs to move on and get her own life. You should concentrate on taking care of yourself and the baby. Enjoy your family. You deserve it!

[SandyR]

Kendall: We don't hate you. We want to protect you from your "so-called" friend Greenlee. She's never been your friend and you need to realize that!

She could have had Spike but chose to abandon you a long time ago. She doesn't deserve Spike or you for that matter. You shouldn't feel guilt over something you had no control over.

Listen to Zach as he's right on! Don't keep giving in to Greenlee until you regret it. Tell her to make a new life..but not at the expense of your family! She's not worth it!!

[CindyK]

Kendall,

There is no way I could ever hate you...but I do wish that you would take your own advice and remember what you told Ryan...not to let his guilt get in the way of his feelings regarding Greenlee.

Zach was dead on today...you owe Greenlee absolutely nothing. Neither you nor Ryan can "fix" Greenlee. Each morning is a new day and how Greenlee chooses to spend it is entirely her call...you've already sacrificed enough for her. The rest is up to her.

[MrsK]

Kendall,

I know that with that huge heart of yours you want what is best for Greenlee...but Zach is right...Spike isn't it. Frankly, I don't know if Greenlee knows what she wants. Don't let her guilt you into sacrificing any more than you already have. Zach is the voice of reason and truer words were never spoken when he told you that you owe Greenlee nothing.

[Zenfan]

I love you Kendall but when it comes to Greenlee, you ARE crazy.

You don't owe her a damn thing. You were willing to give her your first born son and she ripped your heart out in response. Your supposed debt to her has been paid in full. Wake up before you are back to being Greenleech's doormat!

You are not the same person you were two years ago. You've grown up and you NOW know what it is to be loved completely and totally and because of who you are and not what you can give to someone else. Zach taught you that! Don't let Greenlee destroy everything you fought so hard for. Don't let her suck you back into her bottomless pit of need and selfishness.

[HalfPint]

Kendall,

Please listen to Zach's words of wisdom...you shouldn't feel obliated towards Greenlee. True friendship is not based on a debt of some kind or what we "owe". It should be based on mutual respect and understanding. You offered her your love and your firstborn, and it wasn't good enough. She flat out rejected you and the child you were carrying...Greenlee needs to accept and own her actions as have Zach, yourself, and Ryan.

In that marvelous and forgiving heart of yours, I think you know it's guilt that is driving you. Trust your instincts.

[Sharon]

Kendall! Wake up! Zach is right! Do you have to
sacrifice Spike & Zach & maybe even unborn baby X to
satisfy this green monster?
It seems to me that you and
Greenlee were never as close as you're thinking you were. I remember a lot
of animosity, hostility &
very bad blood between you
& about the only time you
were ever really Greenlee's
friend was after the blackout when she needed something from you!! Up to
that point, NO you were not
friends or even friendly &
you certainly owe her nothing! Listen to Zach!
He is the cry in the wilderness here & the only
one who is telling it like it really is!!

[melanie]

Kendall:
I understand your wanting to ease some of Greenlee's pain but what about what she did to you by leaving! Dont forget that! You have Zach and Spike and the new baby to think about!

[talia]

Kendall:
Snap out of it!!

[Lissa]

Kendall, I don't hate you. I know you have feelings of guilt concerning Greenlee, because you have everything she wanted. You don't owe her anything, you tried to give her what she wanted. Remember that she put herself in this situation, she is the one who chose to walk away from everything. Just because she has now changed mind is not your fault. I realize Ryan was just trying to make things better, but he chose a plan of action without discussing with you or Annie before hand. He did not totally think about how this would effect everyone involved, and doesn't really seem to care.

You know Zach is right. For Greenlee to be happy, you're going to end up losing something. It's always been that way between you two. For her to be totally happy, you have to be miserable. She needs to learn how to be a friend, just not expect you to do all the work. It's definately going to get worse before it gets better.

[Anonymous]

Kendall,

I've always known Zach was a very wise man...and today he was spot on. Don't let Greenlee or Ryan manipulate you.

If you really think about why you believe you "owe" Greenlee "something", I think you will realize that it comes down to guilt pure and simple. You should never have to apologize or feel guilty for loving your son.

Had Greenlee stayed I know you would of given her the greatest gift...your child. Emotionally it would of killed you...which is why I understand Zach and his motives when it comes to the blackout...but the reality of it is Greenlee couldn't understand just how far you were willing to go for her...and rejected both you and your gift.

Greenlee has already shown that no gift or sacrifice will ever be enough...please keep that in mind.

[Brainerd]

Kendall,

Honestly, I don't think Greenlee is interested in Spike...he is a means to an end...Ryan.

I really felt for Annie today...loved how she put Ryan in his place and put her foot down...but wish she would of kept it there. I see trouble ahead for these two.

[Bonnie]

Kendall you are a nice person and you do care BUT what nice thing has she really ever done for you. thats right - NADA nothing. Listen to your husband - Zach knows best. You can be nice of course but be careful. She will squeeze every ounce out of you that she can and give you nothing. she hasn't changed!! Shes a meme and always has been. Let Ryan deal with her